I Used to Think Wanting Money Made Me a Worse Christian

Let me get the cleanest part out of the way first: God doesn’t need your money. He never did.

He owns everything already — “For every beast of the forest is mine, and the cattle on a thousand hills.” (Psalm 50:10). He is not short. He is not waiting on your transfer to clear.

So if God doesn’t need it — why did I spend years feeling guilty every time I wanted more of it?

The lie I didn’t know I’d inherited

For a long time, I carried a quiet belief I never examined: that money was somehow unspiritual. That wanting more — even to provide well for my family, even to give generously to things that honoured God — was a kind of greed I should feel bad about.

So I felt bad. I’d want to build, and then flinch. Want to earn, and then apologise for it in my own head. I wore the flinch like it was holiness.

It took me years to see what that flinch actually was: financial avoidance, dressed up in spiritual language.

I didn’t invent that avoidance. I absorbed it — the way you absorb most of the scripts that run your life — long before I could question it. Somewhere along the way it got baptised, relabelled from “I’m scared of money and never learned how it works” into “I’m just not that attached to material things.” That relabel is seductive. It lets you feel righteous about a wound.

But here’s the truth I had to face: guilt over money was never from God. It’s one of the cleaner tools the enemy uses to keep good people small, broke, and ineffective — convinced their smallness is humility.

Of course money matters. A lot.

I had to let this land without a single qualifier: money matters, and pretending it doesn’t is not holy. It’s negligent.

Your money touches your health. Your marriage. Your kids’ education. Your mental peace. Your capacity to actually move the needle on things you say you care about. A man who refuses to deal seriously with his finances isn’t more spiritual than the one who does — he’s just leaving a loaded responsibility unattended and calling the neglect a virtue.

So let me say the hard things plainly, the way I eventually had to say them to myself:

  • You are not more spiritual because you ignore money.
  • You are not holier because you live broke.
  • You are not fulfilling your calling by quietly accepting financial mediocrity and calling that contentment.

Some of what passes for humility in Christian circles is just poverty-mindedness wearing a nicer coat. I know, because I wore it.

What stewardship actually asks

God designed wealth to flow through His people — not to pool up in fearful hoarding, not to be avoided like it’s dirty, and not to be flung around carelessly. All three of those — hoarding, avoiding, mismanaging — are failures of the same thing: stewardship.

Real faithfulness with money looks active, not passive:

  • Investing intentionally, because assets that compound buy you the freedom to live and give on purpose.
  • Treating financial literacy as a spiritual responsibility, not an optional worldly skill — because you can’t steward well what you refuse to understand.
  • Rejecting poverty-mindedness disguised as humility, and being honest about the difference.

The Bible doesn’t praise the fearful avoider. It praises wise management, prudent investing, and open-handed generosity. The servant who buried his talent out of fear wasn’t commended for his caution.

Where I’ve landed

If you’re serious about your faith and the legacy you want to leave, you have to stop treating money like a temptation to flee and start treating it like a tool to steward. Build it intentionally. Manage it wisely. Hold it with an open hand. Let it flow through you toward purpose.

Anything less isn’t spirituality. It’s just avoidance with good PR — and I’d know.

So I’ll ask you the question I had to answer for myself: where have you mistaken a fear of money for a virtue?

Sit with that one honestly. It might be the most freeing thing you do this year.

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