I’ve Been Afraid to Write. But Here’s Why I’m Finally Showing Up — and What You Can Learn From My Mistake.
The honest reason I delayed writing — and the biblical lesson that pushed me to finally start.
This post has been sitting in my heart for a long time.
To be honest… I’ve been afraid to write.
Not because I didn’t have anything to say — but because I was scared it wouldn’t be “perfect,” or that I didn’t have it all figured out yet (I still am working that out).
Maybe you know that feeling too.
But the truth is this: perfection is a trap, and silence doesn’t serve anyone — not the man I’m becoming, not the legacy I want to leave, and not you, who might be walking through the same questions I’ve wrestled with.
So here I am.
Writing.
Showing up.
Starting.
And I want to share something that cost me a lot of time — but I hope it saves you years.
💡 The Lesson: Delayed Obedience is Still Disobedience
As a Christian man, I knew God put writing, sharing, and discipling others into my heart.
But I stalled.
I told myself:
“I need a better name.”
“I need a better tagline.”
“I need to finish building more success first.”
“I need to be more ready.”
The truth?
I was hiding behind preparation because I was afraid.
afraid of exposure.
afraid that I’d look dumb if I had to change my mind half way.
afraid that I am not put together.
afraid that people would read what I wrote and not like it, and worse, unsubscribe.
Goodness gracious.
I took a hard look at myself and what I’d been doing — I’ve really been mulling over the tagline and focus…and truly, I’d been procrastinating and struggled over that for years and years now. Ask my wife, she’d giggle and tell me to just write.
But here’s what I’ve learned the hard way:
God doesn’t call perfect men. He calls willing ones.
And the longer I delayed, the more I realized I was treating God’s nudge like a suggestion instead of a command.
That’s not the man I want to be.
And if you’re reading this, I don’t think that’s the man you want to be either.
📘 What You Can Take Away from This
Start before you feel ready. Clarity comes through the doing.
Obedience > Perfection. God can multiply a small step. But He can’t bless fear-driven paralysis.
Your story matters. Not when it’s finished — now. In the mess. In the making.
📖 A Word from the Word
“If you are willing and obedient, you shall eat the good of the land.” — Isaiah 1:19 (ESV)
🛠️ What to Expect From This Substack
I’ve built two 7-figure businesses from scratch. But this Substack isn’t just about business nor money only.
It’s about becoming the successful Christian men God calls us to be — wise, powerful, rich in purpose, kind, generous, and rooted in Christ.
Here, I’ll write about:
Biblical success and real wealth
Leadership and business
Purpose & Meaning
Fatherhood, Relationships & Impact
Faith, family and legacy
And the journey of becoming
And more
If that speaks to you — I’d love to walk this out together.
🙏 A Final Word
I’m sorry for staying silent so long.
But I won’t make that mistake again.
This is my first post. The first of many.
And I’m honored you’re here with me.
Let’s build lives that matter.
nigelchua