I Sold 98% of My Crypto…I’m Still Slowly Letting Go and Lamenting
God nudged me. I obeyed. But honestly, I’m still grieving a little — as a soon-to-be-former-degen-crypto son.
In my last newsletter and post, I shared that I sold 98% of my crypto as I felt God nudge me in that direction.
Not because the market crashed. Not because I panicked.
But because God nudged me.
He was prompting me to take the next step in a long-held dream: buying our first commercial property to house Phoenix Rehab Physio & Hand, the business He’s given me stewardship over.
So I listened and I obeyed.
But deep down?
I’m being honest and transparent now — I’m still lamenting a little.
🎲 My Inner Crypto Degen
There’s this voice in me — the “knower.”
The one that sees and senses patterns, cycles, bottoms, and charts.
It said:
“Ethereum will rise again. You know it.
Just wait. Just hold. This is the worst time to sell.”
That voice is familiar.
It’s not evil.
It’s just me, thinking like a man who grew up making something out of nothing.
But there was a stronger voice speaking gently to my spirit:
“Trust Me with the seed. Trust Me with the timing.
What you think you may gain… I can give you in other ways.”
When I heard His response to my lamentation…I knew that I knew that I knew, that He is right.
He’s always right.
Feels kinda like providing the sacrificial ram instead of Isaac - God’s in control, and I will continue in obedience…despite my lamentation.
🧱 Obedience Over Outcomes
And so of course I sold 98% of my crypto, and went ahead with looking for a suitable unit in Orchard Road and sought out the unit that was in our price point.
Signed the sales and purchase agreement.
I’m doing my best to not look at the charts, but it feels like the bull run is coming back now, and my previous degen FOMO is setting in.
To the natural mind, it felt like I threw away a potential financial windfall.
Even as I type now, I am feeling a sense of “future loss”, thinking, worrying, and anticipating that I may miss “crypto’s best bull run” that is supposed to happen in 2025.
But to the spiritual man in me — the son trying to walk faithfully — it was laying down the idol of potential to pick up the tool of obedience.
I don’t write this as a man with perfect peace.
I write this as a son still grieving with my Father.
Grieving not because I regret obeying — but because I needed a moment to be honest with Him.
To say:
“Lord, I’m letting go of what could have been…
because I trust in what You are building through me.”
I told Him, I’m fully vested in what He nudged me towards, and I will follow.
👣 What He Reminded Me
Months later, during one of my quiet time sessions, He reminded me:
That He is the source, not my trading knowledge or gut feels.
That real provision comes through purpose, not predictions.
That faith is obeying before seeing — not waiting for confirmation before moving.
And that whatever gain I may have missed, HE is well able to restore, multiply, or provide in a better, more secure, more eternal way.
Which is super true.
Amen.
🙏 Still His Son
So I lament — but I obey.
I sigh — but I still sign the purchase agreements.
I wrestle — but I don’t walk away.
Because even in lamentation, I’m still a son. And a son can bring his tears to his Father without fear.
I don’t know what the market will do.
But I know what my Master has called me to do.
“The Lord gave and the Lord has taken away; blessed be the name of the Lord.”
— Job 1:21
P.S.
Are you being nudged to surrender something — even something you think will “boom soon”? You’re not alone. God’s economy works on faith, not FOMO.
Reply and let me know if I can pray with you.